The Geeks OUT Podcast: Geeks OUT’s Modern Life

The Geeks OUT Podcast

Opinions, reviews, incisive discussions of queer geek ideas in pop culture, and the particularly cutting brand of shade that you can only get from a couple of queer geeks all in highly digestible weekly doses.

In this week’s episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin is joined by Chi-town’s own Eric Green, as they discuss the new trailer for the Rocko’s Modern Life revival movie, wonder if Nickelodeon Slime will take over the ISS, and celebrate the new writer/artist for TMNT, Sophie Campbell, as our Strong Female Character of the Week.

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BIG OPENING

KEVIN: New trailer for Rocko’s Modern Life: Static Cling
ERIC: Nickelodeon Slime sent to space

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DOWN AND NERDY

KEVIN: Lion King, The Boys, Fearless
ERIC: House of X #1, John Wyndham novels

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STRONG FEMALE CHARACTER

Sophie Campbell taking over as writer/artist for TMNT

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THIS WEEK IN QUEER

New trailer for Why Women Kill

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CLIP OF THE WEEK

New teaser trailer for JoJo Rabbit

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THE WEEK IN GEEK

MOVIES

New trailer for Gemini Man
• New trailer for Zombieland: Double Tap

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TV

• The Expanse renewed on Amazon
Carnival Row renewed for season 2 ahead of premiere
The Handmaid’s Tale renewed for 4th season
Big Mouth renewed for three more seasons
Lucifer’s 5th season expanded to 16 episodes
• AMC developing graphic novel Farmland
• Hulu is developing The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy series
• Netflix cancels Tuca and Bertie
• New trailer for Wu Assassins
• New teaser for season 3 of Runaways
• New teaser for season 2 of The Purge

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COMIC BOOKS

• DC releasing Year of the Villain acetate covers
House of X & Powers of X to have color coded logos

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SHILF

• KEVIN: Havok
• ERIC: Cyclops

Opening in 2020 – Alexander’s Monument to Hephaestion is a New Queer History Pilgrimage

Hephaistion by L Gullo

Hephaestion was the life partner and general of Alexander the Great, one of the most legendary conquerors in human history. I don’t use “life partner” as a veiled term for lover – he was never described in the texts we have as Alexander’s eromenos or erastes like his Persian courtesan, Bagoas. Hephaistion and Alexander are generally thought to have been lovers by most historians, but more importantly, they truly were partners in life. Hephaestion was a crucial part in Alexander’s success over a series of decades, not only in the role he played through military campaigns, but also as Alexander’s dearest confidant. 

Sarcophagus detail of Hephaestion hunting a stag from ancient.eu

We do not have any evidence to suggest Hephaestion had any romantic or sexual partners at all, and only married a wife who had been assigned to him by Alexander as a political act to help integrate Persian culture into their court. As queer people who may have known a person larger than life as Alexander, we can extrapolate that if their relationship was romantic but not sexual, Hephaistion may have been asexual, and Alexander may have taken Bagoas as a sexual partner to fill those particular needs. 


Several people who knew Alexander personally wrote of their experiences with him, but unfortunately these direct sources have been lost to us, and we only have third party accounts from narrators of varying degrees of reliability. Therefore any extrapolation we can make are just like any knowledge we have of him at all – extrapolations. 


But it cannot be denied that Hephaestion was Alexander’s dearest and closest partner through life. 

In 2012, a regal tomb in the Macedonian style was discovered in Northern Greece, as part of a larger complex being explored since the 1970s. The Kasta Tomb. They’re still researching and exploring just who’s remains are interned there, but in 2015 Hephaestion’s monogram was found.  The lead archeologist Katerina Peristeri says this is evidence that the whole tomb is a funerary monument for Hephaestion, built between 325–300 BC.


When Hephaestion died, Alexander began the downward emotional spiral that would eventually lead to his own death, 8 months later. Those 8 months were occupied with petitioning the oracle of Siwa to grant divine status to Hephaestion, which was granted. Hephaestion would be worshipped for centuries to come as a divine hero. Cults dedicated to honoring real people who had achieved divine status were eventually wiped out by the Christian empire in an unforgivable homogenization of spirituality from which we have yet to recover. The cult of Antinous, another king’s beloved who was worshipped by large swaths of people from various countries, was another victim of this eradication. Now, with a monument honoring Hephaestion discovered, we can take up that mantle again if we choose. 


Regardless of your feelings about Alexander’s campaign (He was after all a conqueror, though arguably a conqueror of a different sort than those previously mentioned.) his glorification of Hephaestion in death was a lasting and spiritual tribute to same sex devotion. 


The Kasta tomb is due to open to the public in 2020, and I will be watching for updates when the time comes. It is time we began to have our pilgrimage sites to visit, tragic and celebratory, modern and ancient, active and dormant. These are world-changing monuments to the power of our love, and they are part of our heritage as LGBT people. We are a people who have been violently and systematically isolated from spirituality, religion, and our own histories. It is time to reclaim them. If you visit this beautiful monument in 2020 or beyond, do not think of it as crumbling traces of a past civilization.  Think of it as a living monument built for you, by a man who wanted his beloved friend to be celebrated. 


Resources for further research:

Hephaestion’s Monogram Found at Amphipolis Tomb

Katerina Peristeri, the archaeologist in charge of the excavation of the Amphipolis tomb, presented a new finding that may reveal the identity of the individual initially buried in the tomb. During a conference in Thessaloniki, Greece, Peristeri said that her team discovered the monogram of Hephaestion, a general, and closest friend of Alexander the Great.

Kasta Tomb – Wikipedia

The Kasta Tomb ( Greek: Τύμβος Καστά), also known as the Amphipolis Tomb ( Greek: Τάφος της Αμφίπολης), is an ancient Macedonian tomb that was discovered inside the Kasta mound (or tumulus) near Amphipolis, Central Macedonia, in northern Greece in 2012 and first entered in August 2014.

The Geeks OUT Podcast: His Dork Materials – 200th Episode SDCC Review

The Geeks OUT Podcast

Opinions, reviews, incisive discussions of queer geek ideas in pop culture, and the particularly cutting brand of shade that you can only get from a couple of queer geeks all in highly digestible weekly doses.

In this week’s extra special, super-sized episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin is joined by Jon Herzog, and making his triumphant return is Graham Nolan, as they celebrate 200 episodes, reflect on the last 2 years, look to the future, and discuss all the news from SDCC in The Week in Geek.

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BIG OPENING

KEVIN: Marvel announces Phase 4 & Disney+ series premieres
GRAHAM: Agents of SHIELD to end with season 7
JON: New trailer for season 3 of Westworld

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DOWN AND NERDY

KEVIN: Crawl, Veronica Mars, Stranger Things
GRAHAM: Batman, Justice League, War of Realms, Cloak and Dagger, Jessica Jones JON: Queer Eye S4, GRRM Dunk + Egg books, JKR Mystery books

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STRONG FEMALE CHARACTER

New trailer for Harley Quinn animated series

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THIS WEEK IN QUEER

Emmy nominations announced

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CLIP OF THE WEEK

New trailer for Star Trek: Picard

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THE WEEK IN GEEK

MOVIES

First look at Rocko’s Modern Life: Static Cling movie
• First look at Jay & Silent Bob Roboot
• New trailer for The King’s Man
• New trailer for IT: Chapter 2
• New trailer for Cats the Musical 
• Behind the scenes look at Terminator: Dark Fate
• New trailer for Don’t Let Go
• New trailer for Ad Astra
• Halloween Kills and Halloween Ends announced

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TV

• Crisis on Infinite Earths to feature Kingdom Come Superman
Doom Patrol renewed for season 2
Pennyworth to feature queer villain
• New trailer for His Dark Materials
The Boys renewed for season 2
• First look at season 4 of Rick & Morty
• New trailer for The Witcher
• New trailer for season 10 of The Walking Dead, Danai Gurira’s last
• New trailer for Creepshow
• New trailer for Snowpiercer series
• First look at new Star Trek: Short Treks
The Orville moving to Hulu exclusively
• New trailer for HBO’s Watchmen
• New trailer for season 3 of She-Ra and the Princesses of Power
• New trailer for Steven Universe: The Movie
• Sneak peek of season 2 of DuckTales
• New trailer for Carnival Row

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COMIC BOOKS

• DC teases The Flash: Death of the Speed Force
Spider-Man statue called “satanic”
• Marvel announces new X-titles
• Marvel announces The Amazing Mary Jane

Review: Ghosted in L.A. #1

Moving to a new city is tough. Starting college is tough. Breaking up with your boyfriend and losing your best friend in a matter of weeks is also tough. So what’s college freshman Daphne to do? Just what anyone in this situation would do – find some new friends and use this as a chance for reinvention, to find oneself after being under the identities of others for way too long.


There’s just one difference: All her new friends are dead.


“Ghosted in L.A.” #1 does what any good series debut should do: introduces the characters, setting, and motivation for the central plot. And Sina Grace packs in a good deal of that exposition, without making the reader feel overwhelmed or rushed. In both overt and subtle ways we know just what we need to know about Daphne: she’s Jewish (which provides some conflict with her evangelical Christian roommate), she came to this college to follow her boyfriend, and she has a bit of a love-hate relationship with her best friend. Indeed, these are story elements seen time and again., But Grace does all this with humor and heart, so by the time Daphne’s main players in her life – – the boyfriend and the best friend – – are out of it, you want her to execute revenge by just simply living the best possible California girl life she can.


There’s only a brief introduction to the supernatural aspects of this story, as we meet the ghosts who become Daphne’s new best friends at the very end of this issue. But that’s okay. Right now, this is Daphne’s story, and we’ll only understand it (and her relationships) within her lens, so I’m more than okay with only just getting to meet our spectral friends in the final pages of the issue. There’s plenty of time to get to know Pam, Blair, and all the other ghosts of Rycroft Manor. We’re on the same journey of self-discovery as Daphne is, and Grace makes sure we’re going to enjoy every step of it.


Grace also assists artist Siobhan Keenan and colorist Cathy Le on artwork, and the three together give everything the Los Angeles polish and vibrancy, along with the character focus present in the script. Our art team plays with the passage of time in ways that subtly advance our script. The shift in color from sepia toned Montana to Technicolor Los Angeles presents a natural shift in story that is a visual buffet. Daphne’s wait for her classmates in the common room of the dorm shows that long wait not just in the change in the sky, but in the change in the population in the room, heightening the sense of isolation she’s starting to feel, that isolation which certainly steers what will happen next.


The art has the look and feel of another BOOM! Studios property, “Giant Days,” but with a little more realism in face and body features. There’s fair representation of all kinds of body types and ethnicities, from one ghost rocking the dad bod to another with a beautiful natural afro. The art team does well at providing corporeal forms for the non-corporeal residents, coloring them in shades of blue to distinguish them as ghosts from the story’s human elements, but still having them retain the basic forms and shapes of humanity. For the most part, backgrounds are sparse, and with the character focus of this issue, that’s okay.


Now there isn’t much to be hinted at in terms of queer content in this first issue, save for a passing look at what appears to be two men in a relationship on Daphne’s college roommate Michelle’s laptop. (Of course I’m left wondering if Michelle herself is closeted, given this and the strong Christian iconography in her dorm room.) What I do know from Sina Grace’s run on “Iceman” is how he slowly and organically introduced the revelations of Bobby Drake’s sexuality. No doubt if he has such elements planned out for this story, he’ll do the same here.


When people ask me what I like most about Sina Grace’s work, I always say that it’s his ability to write heart and humor in equal measure, allowing each to play off of the other, and to do so in a way that appeals to all ages. “Ghosted in L.A.” continues that trend, and adds in a fun twist to refresh already established story tropes. With BOOM! Studios’s “Giant Days” ending later this year, this looks to be the heir apparent to fill the Daisy, Susan, and Esther shaped hole in your heart. 

The Geeks OUT Podcast: Annabelle Comes OUT

The Geeks OUT Podcast

Opinions, reviews, incisive discussions of queer geek ideas in pop culture, and the particularly cutting brand of shade that you can only get from a couple of queer geeks all in highly digestible weekly doses.

In this week’s extended episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin is joined by J.W. Crump, as they discuss Annabelle Comes Home, WarnerMedia’s forthcoming HBO Max, and celebrate Angelica Ross joining AHS: 1984 in This Week in Queer.

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BIG OPENING

KEVIN: WarnerMedia confirms HBO Max
J.W.: New trailer Light as a Feather season 2

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DOWN AND NERDY

KEVIN: Annabelle Comes Home, Legion, Scream: Resurrection, Ghosted in LA, Lois Lane
J.W.: Child’s Play, Are You the One?, Big Brother

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STRONG FEMALE CHARACTER

New female turtle joins Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

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THIS WEEK IN QUEER

Angelica Ross joins the cast of AHS: 1984

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CLIP OF THE WEEK

New trailer for Dora and the Lost City of Gold

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THE WEEK IN GEEK

MOVIES

New trailer for Maleficent: Mistress of Evil
• Chris Rock and Samuel L. Jackson to star in new Saw
• New poster for Steven Universe: The Movie

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TV

• Amazon orders Paper Girls series
• Another “adult” reboot of The Flintstones being developed
• New trailer for Netflix’s Another Life
• Netflix renews The Society for season 2
• Netflix orders The Cuphead Show animated series
• New poster for Star Trek: Picard

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COMIC BOOKS

• Library cancels event featuring Lumberjanes’ Lilah Sturges

The Geeks OUT Podcast: Under the Tea

Geeks OUT Podcast: Under the Tea

In this week’s episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin (@Gilligan_McJew) is joined by @LynaeDePriest as they discuss Halle Bailey playing Ariel in the new remake of The Little Mermaid, give their hot takes on the new trailer for the live-action Mulan, and celebrate Aneesh Sheth playing the MCU’s first

In this week’s episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin is joined by Lynaé DePriest, as they discuss Halle Bailey playing Ariel in the new remake of The Little Mermaid, give their hot takes on the trailer for the live-action Mulan, and celebrate Aneesh Sheth playing the MCU’s first trans character in Jessica Jones in This Week in Queer.

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BIG OPENING

KEVIN: Sina Grace spills the Ice(man) Tea
LYNAÉ: Little Mermaid live-action remake casts Ariel

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DOWN AND NERDY

KEVIN: Spider-Man: Far From Home, Stranger Things, Jessica Jones, Young Justice: Outsiders
LYNAÉ: grown-ish, Good Trouble, American Ninja Warrior

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STRONG FEMALE CHARACTER

New teaser trailer and poster released for live-action remake of Mulan

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THIS WEEK IN QUEER

Jessica Jones introduces MCU’s first trans character

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CLIP OF THE WEEK

New trailer for The Terror: Infamy

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THE WEEK IN GEEK

MOVIES

New trailer for Teen Titans Go! vs. Teen Titans
• New trailer for Charlie’s Angels reboot
• New trailer for Jumanji: The Next Level
• New trailer for Knives Out

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TV

• Animated Gremlins prequel coming to WarnerMedia streaming
• Netflix orders Sandman series
One Day at a Time saved by Pop
• New trailer for season 3 of Scream: Resurrection?

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COMIC BOOKS

Thor, Squirrel Girl, and Ms. Marvel plays coming to your local high school
The Walking Dead abruptly ends
Mad Magazine coming to a sort of end

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SHILF

• KEVIN: Rescue Rangers
• LYNAÉ: The Gummi Bears

Review: Queerskins: a love story

“A lot of VR asks you to ‘pretend you’re a Black person for five minutes’ or ‘pretend you’re a trans person,'” explains Ilya Szilak, co-creator (with Cyril Tsiboulski) of the virtual reality experience and real world installation Queerskins: a love storyQueerskins premiered at the 2018 Tribeca Film Festival, when this piece was originally written, and went on to win a Peabody Futures of Media Award.  It returns to New York City this week for World Pride with the addition of a second chapter, “The Ark.”  Szilak continues, “We don’t actually want anyone to pretend to be anyone other than who they are and bring all their history, all their baggage, all their prejudices, into this space. The show is about reconstructing this character Sebastian [a young gay man, estranged from his Catholic family, who dies of AIDS in 1990] from a box of photographs and a diary, so your relationship to those photographs and those objects is going to be very different depending on who you are.”

Sebastian’s bedroom installation at the 2018 Tribeca Film Festival

With Queerskins, the immersion begins before you even put on the headset; you’re ushered through a recreated attic bedroom, past shelves and mirrors and authentic knickknacks, to one of two chairs. Once the VR commences, you find yourself riding in the back seat of a car. A man and a woman, Sebastian’s parents, have a tense conversation bubbling with tension, regret, and barely suppressed emotions. Outside, diminishing sunlight filters through the windows as the rural Missouri countryside passes by. I was instantly reminded of similar rides with my own family through western Massachusetts. A box of belongings keeps refilling with items on the seat beside you; I rummaged through a book of Saints, an old muscle magazine, and a stuffed rabbit with my ghostly blue hands. I put on a Hulk mask and a baseball cap. The ride reaches its destination and hits a climax of sorts, but I was left wanting more. In fact, future installments and experiences are planned, including one that promises to simulate intimacy with a virtual lover.

For me, the most engaging part of the experience kicked off once I removed the headset and returned to the real world. I had as much time as I wanted to explore every inch of the bedroom. Visitors are encouraged to touch whatever they like, to pore over every item that draws their interest. “Don’t miss the closet!” Szilak had told me; I opened it to discover an interior collaged with images of black and white muscle gods, the word love glowing in fabulously lurid neon pink at the bottom. I selected and played a record of 80s hits: “We will find you acting on your best behavior/turn your back on Mother Nature,” Tears for Fears intoned. I thumbed through a People magazine revealing the AIDS death and sexuality of actor Rock Hudson. In fact, the specter of AIDS was everywhere, from the photo print out of a protest march to a cheeky card commanding “Men use condoms or beat it.” I signed a guest book marked A Celebration of Life, placed alongside flowers and a statuette of the Virgin Mary. The experience reminded of the song “And When I Die,” so I jotted down some lyrics, ending with the line “there’ll be one child born to carry on.” I associate the recording with the loss of my grandmother several years ago, and yet the song carries a sense of hope that I felt resonating from the Queerskins installation. Like the guest book, Queerskins is largely about death, and yet it celebrates the life of Sebastian, and of the viewer—and, by extension, of those we’ve loved and lost.


Queerskins: a love story is shown in a site specific installation at 325 Canal Street, New York, June 26-30 from 11am-7pm (11-9 Thursday).  Visit vr.queerskins.com for more info.

The Geeks OUT Podcast: Queerer Things

The Geeks OUT Podcast

Opinions, reviews, incisive discussions of queer geek ideas in pop culture, and the particularly cutting brand of shade that you can only get from a couple of queer geeks all in highly digestible weekly doses.

In this week’s episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin is joined by Andrew Fafoutakis, as they discuss the newest trailers for Stranger Things and G.L.O.W. and celebrate Jill Soloway signing on to write/direct the Red Sonja remake in This Week in Queer. 

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BIG OPENING

KEVIN: New trailer for season 3 of Stranger Things
ANDREW: Pose renewed for season 3

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DOWN AND NERDY

KEVIN: Toy Story 4, Euphoria, Agents of SHIELD, Bravest Knight
ANDREW: Chambers, Aggretsuko, Los Espookys, Alternatino

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STRONG FEMALE CHARACTER

New trailer for season 3 of GLOW

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THIS WEEK IN QUEER

Red Sonja finds new director in Jill Soloway

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CLIP OF THE WEEK

New trailer for The Terror: Infamy

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THE WEEK IN GEEK

MOVIES

Prequel to Hunger Games coming
• Avengers: Endgame extended edition coming to theatres
• Pixar announces new movie Soul
• A new Paranormal Activity movie in the works
• New trailer for Ready or Not

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TV

• Big names circling The Stand remake miniseries
Queer Eye renewed for two more seasons
Angel’s 20th reunion happening at NYCC
• New trailer for The Boys
• New trailer for new animated series Scooby-Doo and Guess Who?

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COMIC BOOKS

• J.J. Abrams writing Spider-Man miniseries with his son
DC’s restructuring effectively ends Vertigo and expands YA slate

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SHILF

• KEVIN: Bash
• ANDREW: The Boys

The Geeks OUT Podcast: X-Meh Dark Phoenix

Geeks OUT Podcast: X-Meh Dark Phoenix

In this week’s episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin (@Gilligan_McJew) is joined by Josh Trujilllo (@losthiskeysman) “live” from HeroesCon as they discuss their thoughts on Dark Phoenix, the new trailer for Doctor Sleep, and celebrate Tracee Ellis Ross bringing back Daria’s Jodie as our Strong Female Character of the

In this week’s episode of the Geeks OUT Podcast, Kevin is joined by Josh Trujillo, “live” from HeroesCon as they discuss their thoughts on Dark Phoenix, the new trailer for Doctor Sleep, and celebrate Tracee Ellis Ross bringing back Daria’s Jodie as our Strong Female Character of the Week.

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BIG OPENING

KEVIN: New trailer for Stephen King’s Doctor Sleep
JOSH: New details released for Steven Universe: The Movie

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DOWN AND NERDY

KEVIN: Dark Phoenix, Pose, NOS4A2
JOHN: Godzilla: King of the Monsters, Chernobyl, Nintendo E3

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STRONG FEMALE CHARACTER

MTV orders Daria spinoff Jodie from Tracee Ellis Ross

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THIS WEEK IN QUEER

DC announces new Harley Quinn & Poison Ivy mini

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CLIP OF THE WEEK

New trailer for Frozen 2

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THE WEEK IN GEEK

MOVIES

New trailer for horror themed The Banana Splits Movie
• An animated Spice Girls movie is coming
• New Black Christmas remake coming this holiday

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TV

• New trailer for Veronica Mars revival
• New trailer for Pennyworth
• Syfy developing Lobo spinoff from Krypton
• New teaser for second half of Young Justice: Outsiders
DC Universe reassures future after Swamp Thing cancelation
Russian Doll renewed for season 2
Love, Death & Robots renewed with new supervising director Jennifer Yuh
• Disney+ orders new Chip ‘n’ Dale animated series
My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic introducing lesbian couple

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COMIC BOOKS

• Marvel unveils new Strikeforce
DC Black Label reimagining Harley Quinn’s origin

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SHILF

• KEVIN: Michael Fassbender
• JOSH: Jennifer Lawrence

Interview: Director Jeanie Finlay and Freddy McConnell of Seahorse

In Jeanie Finlay’s sublime, affecting documentary Seahorse, trans man Freddy McConnell embarks on a profound personal journey when he decides to become pregnant.  Freddy deals with all of the physical challenges of pregnancy plus the added stressors of gender dysphoria and other people’s reaction to an “unconventional” parent. I had the chance to sit down with both Finlay and McConnell on the eve of their world premiere at the Tribeca Film Festival.  As it turns out, McConnell provided the impetus for the film himself.


“I’m a journalist as well,” he explained, “[and] I knew I wanted to share this process, this journey.  It was sort of at my instigation.”  McConnell was particularly concerned with finding a trustworthy collaborator.  He wanted Seahorse “to be different from the way a lot of other trans stories are told, which is exploitative and sensationalized.  I never would have said yes to anyone who had just approached me.”  McConnell had witnessed friends’ bad experiences with producers and journalists who proved untrustworthy.  “The reason the film is the way it is, is because of the way it was made and the way it was envisaged right from the word go,” he stated.

Director Jeanie Finlay

Indeed, the film is artfully made and incredibly intimate.  Every step of the process is detailed, from the dysphoria that results after Freddy stops taking testosterone (so as not to interfere with the pregnancy) to the painful end of his relationship with partner CJ.  Finlay spoke with a lovely, soothing British accent as she explained her role in telling Freddy’s story: “I really want to think about the film and let the film emerge.  Like if you go in too tight with a plan, the film doesn’t grow.  The point is to grow like a baby.  One of the definitions of a documentary filmmaker is to be an emotional barometer; I’m really in tune with my feelings.”  Beautiful footage of Freddy’s hometown of Deal, England, as well as close-ups of real seahorses weave through and enhance the narrative.  “I’m very sensitive to how atmospheres and the situation make me feel and I really try to think deeply about, what could that look like in a film?” Finlay said.  “How can I create visuals that can help promote what I felt in the moment?”  This thought process led to some scenes that seem abstract but subtly support the themes of Seahorse.  “Because Deal is so beautiful I wanted that to be part of the film,” Finlay stated. “The idea that we’re sort of sitting on the edge of England, looking into an uncertain future.”

Was the more or less constant filming ever too much for Freddy?  “In the moment sometimes, but the reason it was happening was because I wanted it to happen,” McConnell pointed out.  “I wanted to go out and tell the story.” 


“It’s my job to make the film feel personal, intimate,” Finlay agreed.  “Sometimes my job is to gently push, because when I committed to the film, I said, ‘if I do this, I’m all in.  I give you all my heart.  I’m gonna do this, and it’s not gonna be easy.’  Sometimes my job is to ask the difficult questions.  ‘What is this like?  What is the answer that you haven’t said out loud before?’”


“It did get hard,” McConnell said, “but the way that it was put together and the way we worked meant that wasn’t a disaster and that didn’t mean it was the end of it.  It was just part of the process.” 

McConnell wanted to share his story, in part, to let other trans and queer people know that they have options: “The information isn’t made widely available and it’s seen as something unsafe or shameful.  Things that we’re told aren’t always in our best interests by people who are supposed to have our best interests at heart, like doctors.”  He also hoped the film would be enlightening for audiences unfamiliar with, or skeptical of, trans people.  “People whose minds are racing with those issues and questions they have, debates they want to have, can maybe just  park that when they see, ‘oh, it’s just about another person who has the same desires and struggles and emotions that I do.’”


“When I commit to making a film, I want people to come on a journey with me,” Finlay added.  “’Come on, let me hold your hand and I’m gonna take you on a little journey.’  I want people to see the ordinariness, the normalness, the smallness, the ecstasy of people’s lives.” 


“I just hope that anyone who watches it can relate to some tiny little thing, or maybe some huge thing, in a way that surprises them, that they didn’t expect coming in,” McConnell said. Added Finlay: “I just always want people to feel moved, in a small way or a big way.”  There’s little doubt that anyone who sees Seahorse won’t be.


Seahorse will continue to play film festivals throughout the summer and fall.  Visit seahorsefilm.com for more.